wakes

if awakening is the intention, the destiny, the destination...
then nothing, adore nothing
no intention, no objective, no...destination
once again, or perhaps maybe more
let it return to anything, anything that is felt, intuited, sensed, conjured, realized...that is you.
if, then, but, why?
what is the question. the question that matters in this moment and doesn't corrupt the moment's distinguishing significance.
it's essence.
but essence isn't what I'm wanting to evoke here. there's something else i;m attempting to get at. but i'll let "essence" stand for now, to notice something else that occurs here...
what i'm doing with that word "essence"
i'm being strategic rather than authentic in relating to you, my audience
putting forward the persona i wish to be perceived as that is often...very often... much too often...not what is relatable to in me.
it extends from my mental ability to meet you constructively, though not from my soulfulness that may enrapture, or revile you.
regardless of which it exudes from you, that genuiness of spirit is what you deserve from me
so that you may accordingly determine. am i worthy of your attention, deserving of your trust, sufficiently prepared for your empathy, capable of honoring your truth...that you are kind enough to bestow upon me.

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Composition Dates/Times:11.30.2022
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